Thursday, January 21, 2010



Well, it has been about a month since I posted anything. I kept thinking I was going to turn into this regular blogger, but that hasn't quite happened yet. We are finally getting back into the routine of things, no more snow filled days, making gingerbread houses, and being a lazy butt....its back to working, exercising, paying bills....all that exciting stuff. It is really amazing how much money a house sucks up! So, since we have to be all grown up now and are responsible for a house and all, we decided we needed to be a lot better about our finances, especially cause all my commercials seem to have stopped airing and I am not bringing in the dough like I used to. Boo. But, along with other New Years goals, I am going to strive to think and act more positively and practice being more assertive. I have been networking a bit and hope to have two new agencies by the close of this month. I quit my modeling agency a while back and haven't gotten out there to find another one. Honestly, I wasn't ready to get in a swim suit, have them whip out their measuring tape then take photos of me(front AND back, mind you). But, I need to get over that, get my butt in shape (literally) and start working again. That industry is how it is and its not going to change, so there is no use in me being bitter about it...even though it is quite possible it has jaded my self esteem for life...haha, no not entirely, but its tough when you have done it for 10 years and suddenly at age 26 you become an old model who finds it a lot harder to stay as thin as you were at 15 years old. BAH! I don't want to be old! I would love to completely switch gears into the acting world,which has been my focus these last 6 months, but why not continue doing something I know I can do and make money at....until all the acting picks up:) I am in acting class about 3 times a week and I love the new teacher I have. My acting and comfort level has changed drastically in the past few months...if only I had found him sooner! I love it. I hope to nail down an agent next week, both for acting and modeling....keeping my fingers crossed!!! I set out to lose a few pounds before these up and coming meetings so J and I have been really good about doing 2 miles a day, mainly running, but sometimes I do other cardio machines and if I miss a day, I have to do 4 miles. That and a strict diet has helped a lot. It is nice when the husband is on board. Of course for every two pounds I lose, he loses about 7...not fair.
Christmas break we didn't do too much damage, which is nice:) I think I didn't pig out as much as I normally do and I was always cold...and doesn't being cold bump up your metabolism? You know, cuz your body is trying to keep warm...I heard that somewhere. Anyway, it was fun to spend a week in Seattle with J's fam and a week in UT with mine. My baby niece was born on Dec. 18th, so it was fun to meet her and hang out with her big brother Ryder, who in my opinion is the brightest two year old I have met and I am quite proud to call him my nephew:) People keep inquiring when we are going to have kids and I find the best answer is maybe in the next year or so. Physically my body is fine now. I had the surgery I needed and everything healed up just fine, but mentally I am not quite there yet. I am not thinking the worse, but I am not ready to worry just yet....not when at this time last year I was going through it all for the first time and not when I still think how old he or she would be every progressing month. So, instead I am focusing on my career. I have plenty of time to have kids, I am only 26. I want to accomplish some things work wise and pass off some personal goals before I bring children into this world. I know I will be better for it if I do wait and get some things in order and I know for sure my children will be better for it as well. I know there is no perfect time to have kids, but I have also discovered there is a right time. That right time will have to be in my 27th year and it will be here before I know it, so I best get crackin'. Off I go, to better myself the best I know how;)

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