Well, it has been about a month since I posted anything. I kept thinking I was going to turn into this regular blogger, but that hasn't quite happened yet. We are finally getting back into the routine of things, no more snow filled days, making gingerbread houses, and being a lazy butt....its back to working, exercising, paying bills....all that exciting stuff. It is really amazing how much money a house sucks up! So, since we have to be all grown up now and are responsible for a house and all, we decided we needed to be a lot better about our finances, especially cause all my commercials seem to have stopped airing and I am not bringing in the dough like I used to. Boo. But, along with other New Years goals, I am going to strive to think and act more positively and practice being more assertive. I have been networking a bit and hope to have two new agencies by the close of this month. I quit my modeling agency a while back and haven't gotten out there to find another one. Honestly, I wasn't ready to get in a swim suit, have them whip out their measuring tape then take photos of me(front AND back, mind you). But, I need to get over that, get my butt in shape (literally) and start working again. That industry is how it is and its not going to change, so there is no use in me being bitter about it...even though it is quite possible it has jaded my self esteem for life...haha, no not entirely, but its tough when you have done it for 10 years and suddenly at age 26 you become an old model who finds it a lot harder to stay as thin as you were at 15 years old. BAH! I don't want to be old! I would love to completely switch gears into the acting world,which has been my focus these last 6 months, but why not continue doing something I know I can do and make money at....until all the acting picks up:) I am in acting class about 3 times a week and I love the new teacher I have. My acting and comfort level has changed drastically in the past few months...if only I had found him sooner! I love it. I hope to nail down an agent next week, both for acting and modeling....keeping my fingers crossed!!! I set out to lose a few pounds before these up and coming meetings so J and I have been really good about doing 2 miles a day, mainly running, but sometimes I do other cardio machines and if I miss a day, I have to do 4 miles. That and a strict diet has helped a lot. It is nice when the husband is on board. Of course for every two pounds I lose, he loses about 7...not fair.
Christmas break we didn't do too much damage, which is nice:) I think I didn't pig out as much as I normally do and I was always cold...and doesn't being cold bump up your metabolism? You know, cuz your body is trying to keep warm...I heard that somewhere. Anyway, it was fun to spend a week in Seattle with J's fam and a week in UT with mine. My baby niece was born on Dec. 18th, so it was fun to meet her and hang out with her big brother Ryder, who in my opinion is the brightest two year old I have met and I am quite proud to call him my nephew:) People keep inquiring when we are going to have kids and I find the best answer is maybe in the next year or so. Physically my body is fine now. I had the surgery I needed and everything healed up just fine, but mentally I am not quite there yet. I am not thinking the worse, but I am not ready to worry just yet....not when at this time last year I was going through it all for the first time and not when I still think how old he or she would be every progressing month. So, instead I am focusing on my career. I have plenty of time to have kids, I am only 26. I want to accomplish some things work wise and pass off some personal goals before I bring children into this world. I know I will be better for it if I do wait and get some things in order and I know for sure my children will be better for it as well. I know there is no perfect time to have kids, but I have also discovered there is a right time. That right time will have to be in my 27th year and it will be here before I know it, so I best get crackin'. Off I go, to better myself the best I know how;)

R.I.P.

R.I.P. James. You were a great man. I will miss you. Your wife and baby are in my prayers as well as all those orphans whom you were like a father to. I am still in shock that you are gone. It doesn't seem fair. You were so needed here. You were doing such amazing and important things in your country. Thank you for being my friend and such a great example for me. I hope to help continue all the work you started. I won't ever forget you.

creating bug

Lately all I have wanted to do is craft away....decorating cakes, or my house, or making cards. Its fun for me:) And so I threw a baby shower and used that as an excuse to do all three! Jordan doesn't need to know how much money I spent....hehe

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Cake deco class #3 :) New hobbies are fun.

Ten Women Twenty Experiences

I am in a show that runs through the 1st of November! :) Its a fun show! Info below!

What happens when one actress visualizes herself as 9 other characters as she tries to write the ultimate monologue? She types away and in her fantasy takes the audience with her on a journey to write the nirvana of all monologues. We watch as she painfully types, sometimes with humor, sometimes with anger but always with love and devotion to her cause of writing something meaningful.

Fridays 8pm, Saturdays 3pm, Sundays 7pm
Tickets $20
To reserve your seat call (323) 465-0800

Our attempt at cake decorating

So my girlfriend Frances and I signed up for a cake decorating class and it started out a little rough. It took me forever to get over the hill to Culver City so I was like 30 minutes late..hehe woops! Frances had to buy all my materials and tools etc. for me cause' they were closing the register down. Thanks for the help man:) I think they turned out okay, our cute lil' sunflower cakes, mine is the yellow one...for some reason I thought if I added more petals it would look better...hmm, didn't work out too well for me....BUT its probably not something I would choose to put on top of a cake anyway, but its fine, right? Jordan said I got the leaves right...thanks J. Please don't look too closely as you might be offended by my petals. Many of them look more like penises than petals. Its true! Frances can second that. I pointed it out and she busted up laughing. Then the old ladies teachin' the class got mad at us, said there was too much laughing and not enough frosting goin' on. HEHE....awesome. Next week we learn roses, I will try to not make them resemble any sort of body part. Wish me luck!

Flowers and Fish

Yes, one smells better than the other, but I enjoy them both. My friend brought me flowers after my surgery and when they started wilting a bit I cut off most of the stem and stick them all in a small center piece bowl with water. They magically come back to life and last a few days longer. K, so not magically....I think it has something to do with the fact that water can get to the flower faster and easier if it doesn't have to travel up a long drying out stem. Trader Joe's and Costco usually have some really great quality fresh flowers and good prices. K, so onto fish... I made some Halibut tonight topped with cilantro lime shrimp and cheese with sides of wild mushroom risotto and roasted cucumber with garlic herb crumbs seared with olive oil and balsamic vinegar. It was pretty good. I told Jordan I would start cooking again, so I am trying. It is a lot easier in my awesome kitchen. Plus Jordan got me Cutco knives as a sort of house warming slash why don't you gear up to cook again gift:) I love them, its an awesome investment. They have a lifetime warranty and when you want them sharpened they will send someone out to do it for you, for free. I have never cut with such amazing knives, so thanks J, may the cooking continue to last more than just a few days.... I love new fun easy recipes, so if anyone has any for anything send them my way!!